Never Good Enough

Fighting for worth,

And failing each time,

So I guess I’m nothing now,

As I watch others in their prime.

Better versions I see,

Clones that walk and run in the sun,

All more skillful and better than me,

I’ll be replaced with a trigger of a gun.

I was never wanted,

That much I know,

Of how I was never good enough,

As I was constantly compared to.

Remind myself,

Of what I couldn’t be,

So I gave up and gave in,

I finally stopped believing in what I see.

I no longer cared,

For what I lacked,

Burn all my hope,

Then take it back.

I don’t care anymore,

So I don’t aim high,

But that doesn’t mean,

That I don’t try.

But expected as always,

It doesn’t measure up,

To what THEY can do,

I know when its time to give up.

I’m hard on myself,

Always picking like them,

If I can’t even love myself,

What about others then?