Truth

No matter how many times i forgive,

You'll be sure to break my heart again,

So i won't bother from now on,

All my sympathy has gone.

You were the source of my misery,

That much i figured out,

Why i had to bottle my emotions,

And why my mind is full of doubt.

Why i had to suffer so,

When the bottle overflows,

Why i trusted no one,

No one but darkness and guns.

Lots of times i have thought,

About that one bang and lights going out,

And blades that relieve pain and release ruby liquids,

About eternal sleep where the pain is none.

If it wasn't for my fear of pain,

I wouldn't be here right now,

I could have jumped from the balcony,

In front of a car or a rain of blades...

You refuse to look at what's around you,

Of how many times i had kissed Death's cheek,

Of how he nearly took me under his wing,

After i had fallen asleep.

You don't care, that i already know,

You care about what people say,

Of what you don't have,

You regret day by day.

Well, i'm sorry i wasn't what you wanted,

I'm sorry for being human,

I'm sorry i wasn't born perfect,

I'm sorry for being born at all...