Pick Me!

My dark melody, Come steal my soul, Repeat the siren's song, Come achieve your goal. Tune thy ashen harps, Angels of black death, Play the dead to sleep, May they finally rest. The clouds had come to cry, Like statues that mourn forever, Tears that fall from above, Turn fine skies into gloomy weather. Such a pitiful sight, That even heaven mourns, The pain that never ends, Seem to renew each dawn. Take me away, Lead me with your scythe, Lets cross the river, Styx, And leave behind this life. Attempt after attempt, That failed time and time again, I can't seem to descend, Could it possibly be? That Death himself doesn't want me?

Why?

Its futile to hope,
When you're immune to lies,
When you know truth,
When you're used to goodbyes.

If you think about it neutrally,
Money is nothing but printed paper,
Love is merely an obsession,
Trust is belief that will soon waver.

In this world of concrete and fumes,
People live in their own dreams,
We do not need much at all,
But some beg to differ it seems,

There are many examples,
Of what people insist they need,
What they think makes them top dogs,
But on the way they strive to bleed.

Why do we need to prove ourselves,
To people that do not matter?
Why do we need to impress them?
The people we hate, we flatter?

Lies and more lies,
Its around us everyday,
When one stops believing,
Everything is clear in every way.

Friends and family,
Love and war,
Will eventually hurt you,
And rot you down to the core.

Hatred Hurts

The hatred within me,
It grows like a flame,
Soaring higher and higher,
I hate this game.

Screams of frustration,
Bloody knuckles stain the wall,
Tears flow freely,
But the anger doesn't dissolve.

The hopelessness kicks in,
As my knees start to weaken,
I sink to the floor and cry,
There is no hope, there is no beacon.

My hands start to sting,
But its still not enough,
So i pull out a blade,
And feel my skin, so rough.

Previous scars,
All tell their tale,
Time to add another one,
The pain they give is stale.

Cold hard metal,
Smoothly glides through,
Dancing shades of rouge,
My thoughts lift off, away from you.

Fire spreads through my wounds,
The feeling sublime,
The frustration ebbs away,
As i put it away for another time.

A Dead Memory

Why does it feel,

As if deep in my heart,

A beloved of mine had died?

Why has my heart stopped and start?

It is real,

Yet no death can i record,

No one that i truly cared about,

Nothing is in my memory, stored.

Yet i cry as the catalyst starts to speak,

Bringing tears one after the other,

Soaking my clothes as i start to break down,

My tank and my shorts flood with salted water.

Maybe its me who died,

A long time ago,

When all the pain had started to make,

My self esteem go lower than low.

My thoughts murdered me,

Deep inside my head,

And i woke up, reincarnated,

After i went to bed.

The me that i was,

Before i knew such truth,

Cease to exist,

Yet i have no proof.

She took with her some things of mine,

Like that beautiful smile,

And shining eyes so sublime.

That silver laughter of pure joy,

That childlike giggle of glee,

Health that a horse would be envious of,

Now that i think about it, was that really me?

I cry of a death,

Waiting for her to return,

Though i know thats not possible,

This meeting's not adjourned.

Still i wait,

Believing she'll be back,

I mourn for her day and night,

Deep inside my heart so black.

She told me once before i went to bed,

While i'm off, get stronger, i'll be back,

I waited and i waited then i finally said,

She didn't come because, too much have i lacked.

So there i stand,

Training each day,

To tolerate cuts and taunts,

Always playing the prey.

The years past by,

And i forgot our pact,

Going through endless training,

I totally lost track.

Until i remembered,

In fact she's really gone,

The most bitter memory,

Stretched on for so...so long.

Leave Me Alone

Its killing me,

This thing inside,

Lunacy, madness,

Trials of the blind.

This wind that drifts by,

It goes through my soul,

Tearing and dissolving,

Everything feels cold.

I hate this,

With every fibre within,

Just let me go,

To my fate, so grim.

Leave me to be,

Leave me alone,

Let me fall apart,

Turn my heart to stone.

I’m dying inside,

Why can’t you see,

Of what I’m really doing,

How I’m harming me.

It burns in my chest,

This sorrow and pain,

Let this be over,

Let my life be slain.

I Hate My Name

I hate my name,

It fills me with regrets,

The part that means nothing,

And the part that belongs to pests.

I hate my name,

Part of my mom,

Part of my dad,

None of the things I’m glad to have.

I hate my name,

Reminding me of where I belong,

Among destroyers and thieves,

Internally, I try to be strong.

I hate my name,

Memories of a broken family,

Resurface each time its called,

Reminding me of each tragedy.

I hate my name,

They think that I’m a whore,

That’s all they’ll ever think of me,

That I’ll shoplift from every store.

I hate my name,

I cringe in disgust,

As I think about it,

I was born from rape and lust.

I was an accident,

That’s what I found out,

That’s when my name,

First came about.

Kill me

Tear out my guts,
Smash in my brain,
Claw out my heart,
But don't leave a stain.

Break all my bones,
Rip all my veins,
Drink all my blood,
Give me more pain.

Slice me to shreds,
Drown out my cries,
Stab all my wounds,
And watch while I die.

Freeze all my arteries,
Burn all of my skin,
Cut out my tongue,
Deepen your sin.

Carve into my flesh,
Flood both my lungs,
Pick out my eyes,
Now go load your guns.

Shoot at my skull,
Fracture my ribs,
Dissect my spine,
Mutilate my lips.

Hack at my neck,
Dislocate my hands,
Pull out my fingernails,
Scatter them across the lands.

Shove me in the furnace,
Cover the crime,
Kill me again,
In another lifetime.